Knowing and Doing

Why is it that we know what it is we need to do, but the actual doing can be so difficult at times? We all know some particular thing we need to do, lose weight, eat right, exercise, get a job, accept, forgive, get organized, clean up our mess, move on, commit, grow where we are planted. The list can stretch on forever. I believe most people can find something from the forever long list they need to conquer, why is the doing so difficult?

Wonderful

Lexie: "Mom, isn't it wonderful?"

Me: "Isn't what wonderful?"

Lexie: No response

Me: "You're wonderful"

Lexie: "No, toys are wonderful!"

I love this time of year. I know Christmas is not about the toys and gifts and what not, but I do love the magic which children bring to the season. Children are wonderful!

38 Years

Just a quick congratulations to my parents on 38 years of marriage! Happy Anniversary. You are both such great people. I love you both. Thank you for your good examples to me. We love you. Have a great day !

Honesty

The other day Andrew said something to me about my mustache. I didn't think much of it cause I don't have a mustache. Upon further inspection, I do have a mustache, just a little peach fuzz one, but it is definitely there. You have to love kids, but must they always be so honest?
p.s. I'll take care of the stache!

Remember

I hope Nicole does not mind be sharing, but yesterday and today is the anniversary of the birth and death of Katie and Ellie. Ironically, last week at work I took care of a young mother, expecting twin baby girls, and they had passed away due to a placental abruption, related to the mom getting severe preeclampsia. They were a few days shy of 22 weeks gestation, the same age of Nicole and Davids girls. Taking care of women who have lost there babies always gives me perspective and it always seems to come at a time when I need to be reminded of my blessings. For some reason because I watched my sister experience this, I feel better equipped to care for these families. It is never fun and always a bit emotionally draining but there is also something very spiritual about it. We often think of the amazing experience of seeing life come into this world, but it can be equally amazing and spiritual seeing people leave this world. I usually end up crying on the way home from shifts like this.
I know Nic thinks of these girls daily. It is always hard to know what to say in difficult situations as no words can make it better. Nicole and David were amazing through it all and are always great examples to me. I love you both and your family. Thanks for being a great big sister and brother. Won't it be great when we get to see those girls again, then we won't be so outnumbered by little boys.

Merry Christmas

The older I get the more I feel like time is passing me by. I guess the way to avoid this feeling is to be present for each moment and really soak life in. I sometimes get this feeling at this time of year as I reflect on the past year. As is human nature, I spend too much time thinking of what I maybe haven't accomplished and not enough time rejoicing in what I have accomplished and the blessings I enjoy. Life is short, too short to focus on what maybe isn't just quite right or perfect so I'm going to discard the feeling of discouragement, the devils great tool and rejoice in the many blessings God has given me.

First today I would list my DAD. My dad is great and a big help to me. Jeremy and I keep somewhat hectic schedules and my Dad is willing to help us with the kids. This is not something I believe many grandpas do. Tonight I was offered a home care visit ( I started a per diem job last month doing home infusions), last minute. As I have not gotten my hours at the hospital this fall I wanted take the opportunity but Jeremy was working. I called my Dad and he said, sure bring the kids up in an hour. I was able to earn some good money, because of his willingness to help out with the kids. Thank you dad your are a great cotten ball, and the kids love you. Cotten ball is an affectionate term my kids call my Dad. Don't ask how it started I really don't know.

Each of my children, bring such joy to my life. Sometimes in those moment of discouragement when my focus is on the wrong things, I forget I have all the blessing I need with my little family. How blessed am to have a husband and three beautiful children. I love watching them grow and change and seeing their personalities develop. I am so amazed at how children truly soak up whatever they see and hear. If you say get your shit together to someone and they over hear you be prepared to hear your little lady use a four letter word. Today Andrew picked up a credit card which was on the desk and said this is my debit card. I thought how does he know what a debit card is? I guess they ask whenever you check out, debit or credit? There little minds are such sponges I wish mine was. Andrew and Lexie are often caring stuffed animals around calling them there kids. Today Andrew said his kids were not acting nice, he has three, Alshley, Emerey, and Carter. I think those are names of kids at preschool. Then Lexie started saying her kids were acting terrible and it was ridiculous. I hear myself in so many of the things they say. I hope I am teaching them the right things. I love that she wanted to do her dratitude (gratitude) journal before going to bed and the cute things she says and her funny prayers. Often in Lexie's prayers I do not know what she is talking about, but I guess the Lord does. My little Annie is at such a fun age, 15 months. She jabbers lots, gets into everything, her most recent obsession the toothbrush drawer, and can often be seen tagging along after her siblings. She wants to be a part of the fun. I love the magic children bring to the holiday season, and I love seeing the twinkle an excitement in their eyes when we talk about or see anything Christmas. I wish you all a Merry Christmas! Enjoy the season.