In the mind of a kid...

Andrew April 2006 (21 months) and his Don King Hair

It is funny to see the way children reason. The other day, Andrew said,"Mom am I black? I said, "Yes." He then followed it up with, "Did God paint me?" He is four, African American, in a white family. He is in preschool doing activities such as finger painting and the likes. I can see how his little mind came to this conclusion. I told him,"No, God makes people all different colors and he made your skin brown, mine white..." and so forth. So today, he rode his John Deere tractor over to the neighbors, and informed Shauna, his tractor is green cause God made it that way. At least he got the lesson, I think. I love this little boy and am Grateful he is in our family.

Faith

I have been thinking a lot lately about faith. In the snippets of conference I heard ( I was working) I feel they touched on this and confirmed the thoughts I had been having.

I have a friend who lost her baby mid way through her 2nd trimester. She recently mentioned feeling forgotten by the Lord, struggling with her faith and then guilty for having these feelings in the first place. I think at one time or another most, have had feelings such as these. She made a comment, that maybe in the grand scheme of things when atrocities are occurring in Africa, genocide, child soldiers, hunger, maybe her pain was trifle, didn't quite make the cut for the Lord to consider, or have time for. While understanding her reasoning, I know the Lord is intimately aware of all of us. I can't explain the apparent injustice's in the world, other than we all have different lessons to learn and different circumstances which will aid us in learning what it is we need on an individual basis. I don't understand his omnipotence, but I know it is real, I can feel it in the details of my own life.

I think it is interesting I am in primary. I have on more than one occasion, been comforted, inspired, or had confirmation while in the primary. I think the Lord knows my mind is simple and this is where he can best reach me.

Since deciding to move I have had fearful thoughts, doubts only to have something little remind me this is the right thing for our family now. Two Sundays ago I was having these thoughts race through my mind, when I thought I need to pray for reassurance, and not a minute after I had this thought I got my reassurance through a story my team teacher in primary, shared with the class. Call it coincidence or whatever you will, but this is the way the Lord works, through those around us.

Working as a nurse, on occasion I have had the opportunity to observe those of different faiths than my own. I am always impressed with the Muslim culture. They are a culture of faith and dedication, and observing one women in particular, I felt inspired to be more dedicated in my own faith and beliefs; in an ever changing, tumultuous world Faith can be our constant.

Two thoughts for today: 1st, there is nothing better in this whole world than this.

2nd I'm grateful for a sister who would not only watch my kids for the day, but would also drive from NSL to Layton drive back to NSL to pick up Truey, then back to Layton to pick up Andrew, then back to NSL just so my boy, could go to preschool, because she thinks it is important for him to go, and good for him. Not too many people would do that. Thank you Nicole for spending your morning chauffeuring my kids. I love you and so do they. You're great. Here you go Jess, a new blog.