Today I'm going to write of few recent happening and just a smorgasbord of random thoughts which have been shooting through my mind far to rapidly. As I drive to work, I have a 45 min drive one way if there is no traffic, I seem to have all sorts of ideas and thoughts I want recorded. Later when I go to record them the things which sounded so profound in my head come off a little less than profound. I seem to find some clarity on my commute, which I miss the rest of the day. This clarity exists only on my way to work, afterward I'm too excited to be home already.
- Recently before I start a shift at work, I have started praying for clarity of mind and safety as I care for my patients. This is probably something I should have been doing all along but just really didn't occur to me. I decided to do this because it has been so busy I don't want to miss anything. A mistake I may make has the possibility to be crucial to outcomes for moms and babies (I'm a labor and delivery nurse). Today I realized I should put more effort into praying for guidance and direction when I start the day with my children, as it is certainly the most important work I do. I wake up and we start the routine, meals, get dressed, entertain, clean, eat, naps, head to work. I need less of going through the motions and more of living in the moment.
- What is up with bikers who think they are cars. This is seriously a pet peeve of mine. Get out of the way. The car is bigger and can actually drive the speed limit, so quit holding us up and get out of the way. My husband is a biker. He assures me he does not do this. I hope so.
- We should never deprive someone of their hope. It may be all they have; and at some point or in some aspect of our own lives we may experience the need to cling to a hope.
- I read an article today on statistics and research about how having children does not make you happier. In fact it may make you less happy. To this I say BS, and I'll pass on your research, waste of time. Really can you gage happiness by a questionnaire, or lab. Really who is your control group? I'm not saying you have to have children to be happy, I just don't think having them makes you less happy. My children are my greatest joy. Really we are as happy as we chose to be, regardless of circumstance. Some days I'm super happy and some days I struggle.
- I'm on a quest for my personal best. I turned twenty-nine in April and for some reason before I turn thirty and want to look and feel my best. I'm also on a quest for balance in my life and organization; any tips you may have I am open to.
- I got to thinking about my Dad's hands today. He has strong weathered hands. They are the hands of a man. I can picture them in my mind right now. They are a REAL man's hands. He has worked the construction industry for all of my life and he knows how to work hard. Those same hands cradle a baby and I'm telling you I've never seen a baby who doesn't like my dad. I think this is a good judge of character. If a babies and animals like you and are comfortable with you it speaks volumes about you as a person. Thinking about his hands led me to my mothers. My mother has beautiful hands. She would not say so, but it is the countless hours of work and service she has performed with these hands which make them beautiful. She is an accomplished seamstress, fast typer, good cook, and truly a whirlwind of accomplishment, all which is done by her hands. Then I thought of my Grandpa's hands. I love looking at elderly hands. There is something so beautiful about them. They know how to work, and keep on keeping on. My Grandpa's hands are enormous, especially considering he is not an especially big man. I always tell him he should have played the piano and he laughs and says, "My aunt always said this to me." Lastly I thought of the hands of a chubby baby, my children and my nephew came to mind. I think of Andrew and Lexie holding hands together, they are best friends and I love to see them when the are playing nice and holding hands. I also love the contrasting color when they hold hands. I thought of Daniels plump little fingers and how when kids are learning to use there hands how they manipulate things and it is so awkward at first. Our hands take us so many places and I'm grateful for my hands
I will close now. Lots of rambling and randomness, this is how my mind is.
